In honor of Mother's Day, I got to thinking about how much my son has changed my life...
It's beyond amazing. I love him so much, it sometimes hurts. Does anyone else experience that? It's a capacity that astounds me everyday.
He's made me a gentler, happier person. He's just awesome that way.
Other things have changed too.
I used to have at-home spa nights for myself.
I keep cleansing wipes by the toilet so I can run one over my face when I get a chance to pee.
[Speaking of which, I now know how to do with someone on my lap, and I usually pee with the door open--no shame.}
I used to enjoy long, hot showers and deep conditioning treatments.
I sometimes can't remember when was the last time I showered and I find myself wondering if my husband would really mind if I started using his Old Spice all-in-one hair/body wash for expediency.
I used to enjoy my meals, remembering to eat slowly, engaging in conversation.
I shovel it in like it's trying to run away from me. You never know when that window of opportunity might close. Eat fast, or don't eat.
I used to keep up on politics and current events.
Burt and Ernie's arguments over whether it's fun to sing or not is about as political as I get, and I'm lucky if I know what day it is.
I used to wear perfume and lipstick.
I smell like spit up and am covered in slobber. It's a good look.
I used to think: Sex? Why not? I'm on it! (No pun intended)
Sex? Why? I'm tired!
I used to roll out of bed at noon whenever given the chance and luxuriate in our big bed.
I wake up to the cutest toothless grin you've ever seen, and am continually surprised at the ability his tiny body has to take up a king-sized bed.
I wouldn't go back to my old life for a second (Okaaay, so maybe for 30 minutes. I miss having groomed eyebrows and exfoliating!)! All the sleepless nights, slobbery messes and stretch marks are worth it in such a profound way, I don't think it can be explained.
Being a Mommy has been a dream and life-goal of mine forever and having it come true has not disappointed.
I'm pretty sure my other dream of international pop-stardom would have.
[No joke, Career Day as a kid, I wanted to be Tiffany. Did anyone see her ungodly turn as an "actress" on SyFy? No? Just me? It's just as well.}