Asleep. So sweet and innocent.
I love him. To the point where it's often hard to breathe- because the sheer enormity of the love I have for him feels like it might overwhelm me...
He is what I have dreamed of.
He is what I have lost...
and found again.
Tomorrow is his first birthday party. His actual birthday is Thursday.
I can't believe we've already come to the year-mark.
It feels like yesterday-yet, since the beginning of time?
It's been quite the journey....
Tonight as I brushed his hair from his forehead, I was reminded of this:
For my Child-Whom I shall never meet.
Watching you sleep puts the world
There is peace
Cynicism has no place
Where you dream
I will lie beside you
(December 17th 2003)
It is strangely just as true now as I wanted it to be then.
Which is oddly comforting.
Goodnight, my Darlings.